pain and healing: eins und zwei
The Pain (Part 1)
Have you ever felt a crippling sense of loneliness, a crippling anxiety gripping you from the back, the front and from everywhere? It feels like it's making holes in your chest, injecting it with more and more darkness. It's spooky, it's tenacious and leeches onto every thought you have, and slowly sucks your mind and life out of you like a leech would, blood.
No matter how much you try to run away from it, no matter how much you try to shake it off, no matter how much you try to isolate it from your thoughts and suppress it and push it away it doesn't leave because it resides in each thought, it resides within your heart.
The physical manifestation of it is a heaviness, a distress, a discomfort that doesn't just go away because, it's alive and breathing and, is like a parasite that feeds off of each and every thought of yours.
That's how it stays alive, that void.
Eins! This sort of pain, perchance a feeling that you'll never completely get used to, takes time, learning, effort, first-hand experience and some flip-thinking to become as impervious as possible. Not a matter of if but when, so let's prepare ourselves accordingly and never stop communicating on each other's pains.
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